Tamidra

“….One person may have an opinion of you, while another person will tell the world you’re someone else. Then there’s the unique possibility that they’re both right yet they’re both also wrong. You are a different person to different people at different times in life, and the mysterious nature of who you actually are may never really be known or understood by the human mind….”-Tamidra

The picture above was a random selfie snapped at Fall for Greenville in Greenville, SC. It was a simple yet fun night out that I’ve been known to take quite frequently. It also serves as a reminder of the perception some people have of me. You see, I am the mysterious Ambivert. I am a nearly equal balance of an introvert and an extrovert. I am not the whole of one, but an equal part of both. This causes me to be misunderstood by most people. Most people see me as the introvert-a quiet soul not having much of a life or many dealings with society. On a tired Monday, this could be true. However, really what they are seeing is a person who does not take pleasure in discussing the details of my life with everyone. My inner circle-the circle I trust the most, the circle I trust with my life, the circle I trust to tell me truth no matter how hurtful it may be, the circle I know I can count on, the circle that I make room for at the table of my life….is very few in number. If you are  not a part of that circle, I appear to be a loner who has absolutely no active life at all. I prefer it that way. If I feel like I do not owe you an explanation of  my life, why give it to you? People have a way of putting you on their timetable with a set of their own instructions. To them, you’re supposed to be this person or that person, and you’re supposed to have that accomplished by this time, and if you do not meet their standards-somehow you’re a failure at life itself. I am good at allowing people to believe whatever they want. It’s tiring to constantly explain yourself to people, when they can’t simply appreciate who you’ve chosen to be to them. I’ve met too many people in life who have this misguided preconceived notion of who they think I am, and even when I try to tell them they are wrong, they choose to stick to what they think. People are going to think whatever they want to about you. You’ll meet some who will have a change of mind and heart about you, but there are those who will stubbornly stick to who they want you to be, and oftentimes they want you to be someone they can control to some degree or someone they feel like they will stay a step above at all times. In other words, they don’t want you to be the person who has stepped outside of their limitations they’ve set for you. Sometimes it’s best for these particular people not to know everything about who you actually are, because they may not be able to handle it. The truth is, I do not sit around and talk about my life in detail with a lot of people. If you’re a part of it, you’ll see it for yourself along the way. My life is my journey. Whether I am an introvert or an extrovert depends on who you are, and if our journey’s should cross—-let’s just enjoy life!

What do you think?

~Tamidra~